Thoughts and Pain and Rambling

Woke up this morning coughing another lung out, really getting sick of your shit summer cold.

As I lay there trying to will myself into making the inevitable decision to either go back to sleep or to get up and start moving my ankle made the decision for me by starting to ache the worst I have felt it since the break. It could be argued that there have been instances of worse pain however this is the pain you get when you sleep pinching a nerve and then when you wake up, your body can just tell you this is going to hurt for a while and it's not going away easy.

Sitting on the back deck, hanging out with the garden's, thinking about the things I need to get done today. One thing I am looking forward to is seeing Cora, my very lovely Derby Wife at Starbucks. Cora will be working but it doesn't matter I am just happy to be seeing her.

We need to start sorting things in the house so that we are ready for the yard sale next weekend, I already have a few boxes ready but I lost my stride somehow and now I need to get it back to finish.

I think my dad and mum are concerned that I am going to get all depressed about losing my job, dad keeps asking me if I have contacted any people I made relationships with so that if they have a job open they can think of me, which for the record I have already done.

We have our next game tomorrow, I am super excited as Cora is going to be skating in this game!! I am a bit concerned how were getting everything to the arena with the Van no longer being used (bought a impala as the Van was pretty much dead, it seats 6 so only 1 less than the Van and the boot is much much bigger.

I cannot believe I am about to say this but I might straighten my hair today, I am not 100% but I am thinking about it. Probably because I am going to a goodbye party for a friend from work and I want to look amazing when I see them, but will probably not follow through on that and I will show up looking like me, which is fine anyways!!

 I've been thinking more and more about belief's and what people believe in, I've always felt like I don't know where I sit in that situation. Honestly there are time where it really frustrates me that I don't know where I sit in that system. I know that I believe that there is another force working with us, whether that is "God", or "Gods", or something completely different I have no clue. Sometimes I think I may be closer to the nature side of it all, makes me want to explore past family ties I have to my Irish family, see what lies back there and if that's where I get some feelings from. I'm not looking for something to immediately tell me what my believes are...like the sorting hat. I understand I cannot just put a magic hat on and have it yell "Protestant (believes in God), or "Norse God's", or "Pagan" it's not going to happen and I don't think that would be the correct way to discover something so important and close to people as their belief system.

Bah, I have a bunch more to say but I can't seem to string it together properly. Might need to write up a new entry for these new swirling thoughts.

Nickle